Yesterday was an adventure. We were driving home from the stables with the kids when my husband decided to take a different way home. On the way there, we’d been sitting in the hot sun waiting because of construction. Wanting to avoid that again, he took a different turn.
We won’t say the wrong turn. But it did feel like he’d made a mistake as we drove farther and farther away from home. We passed buildings I didn’t recognize. There were stretches where it was grass and trees as far as the eye could see. Now, we don’t live in a booming metropolis, but take this girl out of the familiar borders of town and fear gnaws at my heart like a beaver at the end of a log. And if I’m even in the vacinity of seeing something like that happening, I’m waaay out of my comfort zone.
I might have panicked a bit, distant memories of getting lost on a dirt road with my husband back when we were dating (but that’s another story for another day). I might have asked how long this detour would take. I might have checked the gas gauge once or twice to see if we’d be okay. I might even have checked Google Maps a dozen times, but I wasn’t afraid.
I wasn’t afraid because I trusted my husband wouldn’t put us in harm’s way. He loves and cares for us, and he had a plan. Granted, his plan took us on a 2 hour detour through country roads, but in the end we got home safe and sound and with a story to tell.
As I lay in bed last night, I thought about how easy it is to trust my husband simply because he loves me. And if it’s so easy to trust him as he takes me down unforseen roads, then why is it so hard to trust God when He does the same? If my husband loves me, He loves me more. If my husband has plans I can navigate through with comfort, His plans are greater. So wht is it so hard to trust?
Maybe because while His plans are greater, they’re also uncomfortable. When we sing the popular words, “Spirit lead me where my faith is without borders” we need to take pause – simply because He can. It seems easy enough to sing the song while you’re listening to it on the radio or if you’re singing along in church. But the song is asking God to take you places you’ve never been before. Do you have enough trust for that?
What does it look like to truly surrender it all and go wherever He leads us? Not a question I have an answer for right now, but maybe it’s something you’ve been wrestling with. For now I take comfort in Proverbs 16 verse 9:
We can make our plans, but the Lord determines our steps.
I think my life is a testimony of this verse. Nothing I’ve planned for myself has come to fruition – none of the big, important life plans. Everything has played out differently than I would have chosen. But the beauty in that is that everything is different, but not a disaster. Because God’s plans are bigger and better than I’d imagined.
So these country roads aren’t so bad. Every tree and bush and field are put there by an awesome God. And even if it makes me uncomfortable, I can lean back and enjoy the ride. Because over all my life, through every situation, I’m held in the hands of a loving God.